When you're sober,

Its sixteen bloody degrees in Hanoi!

2010-04-15T17:28:00.018+08:00

All's good in Hanoi. Hopefully things will turn much better in the days to come.
Its not so bad, with the beautiful friends around me that keeps my days going..
I lost 2kg while I am here and my pants are slightly loose whenever I wear them.
No, it is not a bad sign, I am still enjoying my stay here though.
Well I should be cause there's still 46 days more to go. I don't wanna fall homesick.
I already did, but I tried so hard not to be reminded of home and how much I miss the people in Xin-Gia-Por.
Well, its okay people, lets just perserverrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeee till the end! Heh.
After all I am here to gain something out of this internship.
Oh yeah, my friends and me finally discovered a halal restaurant at another district nearby our hometown.
We're sooooo gonna crash that place on Saturday night! Wooooooo can't wait. I am drooling even right now, imagining Nasi goreng cili padi and some fried chicken and maybe some Pho Bo(famous food in Vietnam, beef noodle)!

IN HANOI, VIETNAM :D

2010-04-06T12:12:00.005+08:00

(My apology, will upload more pictures soon. The internet connection is sucky here)

Just to let all of you know, I am doing moderately well here. Except that I can't stand the amount of dusts accumulated in Hanoi. Oh not forgetting to mention about the traffic here, it is bad, real bad. I learnt how to cross the road the first time I touched down Hanoi. Food's no good here. Find it hard to live without rice and chicken. But I am fortunate enough I could cook in my own apartment.. so no fret. Guess I won't whine too much, because I believe the bestest part of the adventures in Hanoi have yet to come by. Be patient world, I'll come back for more! :)

Best Regards And Warmest Love From Me.
- Fizah Ramle

Lover's spit

2010-03-20T19:53:00.000+08:00

you know it's time, that we, grow old and do some shit.

Gone crazy over your smile

2010-03-15T00:23:00.000+08:00

Lenny krapek. Hahaha. :)

Surprise, surprise.

2010-02-25T01:31:00.002+08:00

You eat.
You pray.
You love.

Eat, pray, love.

That's how you live life.

Geeeeeeeee! I can't wait for the holidays to come by!

ONE MORE PAPER TO GO AND THATS IT!
Goodbye Year 2, Hello Year 3!

Overseas Internship Programme to Vietnam;Hanoi coming up.
Will be working as a teacher in a school, well, more like a tuition centre.
April 2010-June 2010.

More updates soon.

I will have to wake up early today. So let's say goodbye for now.

Goodnight to you :)

Just a boy.

2010-02-16T23:59:00.002+08:00

You go Beyonce!

To all you woman out there who have been let down for the umpteen times, tell those man out there, we don't give a shit.

When you fall, tell yourself it's okay, it's alright, you get up and show him how you can live even better off w/o him.

The drugs just don't work.

2010-02-12T00:02:00.001+08:00

Incompatible, it don't matter though
Cause someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Lovable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Thank you.

2010-02-04T23:33:00.002+08:00

I'll be there for you. :)

Always Waiting~

2010-01-23T02:04:00.008+08:00

Makes my world go round~

Exactly like I used to.

2010-01-09T12:59:00.004+08:00

It's been really a long long time.
How's me?
Yeah, I guess I am still me, the one you used to know.
Nothing changes.
2009's been pretty harsh.
But Im glad, glad to have been able to push through the obstacles.
Experiences with every single person you meet throughout your life is priceless..
There's always reasons why God want you to meet them, befriend them, be close to them, laugh with them, cry with them, smile with them, argue with them, stay with them or even separation.
Only you can discover why when you give time to allow you to answer them.
I love my family.
I love my bestfriend, yes I really do.
I love my beautiful girls, yes all the FOUR of you.
I love my beautiful polypockets, yes all the SEVEN of you.
I love every of my beautiful friends out there, who have been there regardless rain or shine.
Yes, I do cherish every single one of you. Thank you for letting me in, letting me be a part of all of you. Let the years count on our friendship and make it last till eternity. Insya Allah. :)

Happy 2010 everyone.
All the best to all of you.

Biggest love of all from me, Fizah Ramle.

Hit me baby.

2009-12-06T15:10:00.004+08:00

All high watching Travis live in Glasgow dvd.

Got me so caught up, the songs keep playing in my head.

Makes me feel all goood.

Dear Travis, I would love to watch you perform live someday.

Do make my wish come true.

Show me.

2009-12-05T19:09:00.002+08:00

I LOVE NORAH JONES! :D

&you always take me higher, Mr A.I :)

Listen.

2009-12-02T07:15:00.000+08:00

:'(

Remain unspoken.

2009-11-29T13:27:00.003+08:00

I strictly recommend all of you who happen to read this post to watch NEW MOON!
Jacob's mine.. Edward is somehow mine too and oh! Jacob's friends are hot tooo..
SO GIRLS! GOOOO WATCHHHHHHHHHHH and don't hesitate no more!!! There's alot of eye candies for you to ogle at in this movie and i swear i mean it! *cheeky smile*

Tak ada yang abadi.

2009-11-24T23:17:00.002+08:00

Waktu itu pukul 7 malam aku datang menjemputmu
di bangku taman aku menunggu hingga kau selesai berdandan
kita telurusi jejak-jejak malam yang bertabur bintang
semakin berat hatimu untuk aku lepaskan.

Tapi kini keadaan hidupku telah jauh berbeda
tak ada lagi hati yang aku tunggu tuk selesai berdandan
aku telurusi jejak-jejak malam yang bertabur bintang
semakin berat hatimu untuk aku lupakan.

Tak pernah aku menyangka sejauh ini aku melangkah,
tak pernah aku menyangka sedalam ini aku terluka.

Jika hidup terus berputar, biarlah berputar
akan ada harapan sekali lagi, seperti dulu...

&

2009-11-17T10:40:00.001+08:00

Not my everything.

2009-11-16T23:54:00.000+08:00

Why?

2009-11-14T14:01:00.002+08:00

Each and every time you make me wait, my heart always whispers 'stay a little while longer.'

im & fi

2009-11-08T12:42:00.000+08:00

Ineedyourheartbeatingnexttomyheart , in love i am. :)

Sexcited.

2009-11-05T01:13:00.007+08:00

Hi Mr A.I (hehe),

MUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~

(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Better days.

2009-10-31T20:49:00.001+08:00

I want to start anew.

On fire.

2009-10-26T20:58:00.001+08:00

*Meltsssszzzz*

Faster and Faster.

2009-10-25T21:31:00.001+08:00

Closer

2009-10-25T16:49:00.000+08:00

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find you and I collide
I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Millions fireflies.....

2009-10-16T23:47:00.005+08:00

Had 4 strands of red-ish extentions on my hair. Don't think it would be obvious though! Haha. Anyway I had a real good time with polypockets over at the chalet two days ago.. reached home at about 2 am and I gotta thank Baia pretty much for the ride home. Yes thank you so much! I know without you it's really impossible for me to get home since i had to work the very next day. My weekends are packed with work under a Jetstar event and I'll be watching Impak Maksima at Esplanade theater tmr with the two of my lovely loves, Shida&Zatie. Yes very the melayu..Baia laughed so hard at me the moment I told him about it( evil much? )but it's alright, Im gonna watch Adeep perform live! Was surprised he still remember me as his far distant cousin. Oh well, all the best Adeep :) Its gonna strike midnight soon. I need my beauty sleep! Goodnight beautifuls!

YEAYYYYYYYYY~ can't wait for school! ( yeah, like all of a sudden? urgh. )

Butterflies when you come around............

IM SOOOO happy~~~

2009-10-08T01:45:00.004+08:00

THANKS FOR COMING OVER MY PLACE FOR RAYA FADZLI&CO. Really appreciate it much. Had a good time though its just for awhile because i really miss every single one of you. Anyway, I will be working for an event at Plaza Sing tmr from 12-8pm and really have no idea what i'll be doing exactly there. Hopefully there will be great company throughout the 8 hours and a boomz salary! Heh. And Oh! I went for a jog and a short swim with Shida earlier on and i totally dig how simple ive spent my day. Wisely yet enjoyable because of the great company. Heheh. Immmmma catch up on my sleep people! Will be waking up early for a good day ahead. Goodnight! :)

I'll be back another day,

2009-10-06T23:49:00.002+08:00

Don't know why the sudden despair in me.

I feel so hopeless.

You sang to me~

2009-10-03T00:49:00.002+08:00

My newly decorated desktop background! NICE?! hehe. I love it! :)

Polypockets + Boyfriends + Friends = crazyshitttt!

2009-10-01T02:56:00.008+08:00

GOOOODAAAAAAYYY PEOPLE!!! Thank you so much, every single one of YOU!

I had alot of crazy fun "walking-raod" with everyone of you. Hehehehehe :)

CHALET SOON, hopefully! More crazy events coming up!

Alright, will be uploading more pictures probably later on.. Now im OFF TO SLEEP!

Selamat Hari Rayaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~

And and and, love love love all of you for making things like these to happen :)

GOOODNIGHT!

What is really love? Who is really the one?

2009-09-27T03:56:00.000+08:00

Mum says its hard, lelaki lelaki akhir zaman....?
I agree.

Tralala~

2009-09-24T18:42:00.001+08:00

Can't wait to get home, baby dial your number.
Can you pick up the phone?
Cause I wanna holla.

1st.

2009-09-24T00:35:00.003+08:00

Sunset + Aeroplanes = :)

Thank you Baia Gemzzzzzzzzz!!! (You made my day)

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKER!!!!!!

2009-09-23T03:32:00.000+08:00

FUCK YOU, YOU BLOODY FUCKING FUCK!!! I FUCKING HATE YOU!!! YOU JUST RUINED EVERYTHING FUCKER!!!!!! I HATE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!

Niceeeee~

2009-09-17T17:04:00.006+08:00

When i browsed through the albums in my folders, and bumped into these, i realised im missing these people. And the night we had together was splendid, i really could spell myself happy. Though some of us were still new to each other, everyone had engaged well in conversations as though we've known for quite sometime.

It was a nice experience i must say and age doesn't really matter, after all we shared&understood the same kinda jokes. The part when i had to be in a push-up postion was a memorable dare.. At times im just reminded by these little incidents and will laugh at how silly i was. Actually everyone was being silly that night, can't deny that.

Cafe Del Mar was alright, except that when we came in, it was almost closed. Nice place to chill but those ang mohs sitting directly opposite us were bloody rude.. wasn't expecting those kind of behaviour portrayed after us trying to be nice. Yeah, sometimes it doesn't pay to be nice... especially towards these snobbish foreigners who were simply trying too hard to look or be 'cool'. You know what's more cool? Someone whose not even trying to be one or even brag, down-to-earth kind of thing. That's more like it.

Anyway, that's not the reason why i choose to post this up, just one more wish, could we have another night out together?! Please..... :(

And a piece of good news, Tobi is coming down on this Nov! Oh great! I miss that big guy too!!!

Yikessssss! Alright i think i should stop, im in the middle of doing something actually but these fingers decided to post up an entry. Anyway, almost 3 more days to RAYA! woohoo! Gooodaay people! Till then~

Let it be

2009-09-16T18:23:00.002+08:00

That's the reason why, i choose not to get involve with any form of boy-girl relationship.

Sucks balls.

PPPPParty

2009-09-16T00:52:00.001+08:00

Moving my hips like, YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAhhhhhhhhhh~

The drugs don't work

2009-09-16T00:16:00.003+08:00

Hold on little girl

Show me what he's done to you

Stand up little girl

A broken heart can't be that bad

When it's through, it's through

Fate will twist the both of you

So come on baby, come on over

Let me be the one to show you

I'm the one who wants to be with you

Deep inside I hope you feel it too

Waited on a line of greens and blues

Just to be the next to be with you

Build up your confidence

So you can be on top for once

Wake up who cares about

Little boys that talk too much

I seen it all go down

Your game of love was all rained out

So come on baby, come on over

Let me be the one to hold you

weehooo!

2009-09-15T00:29:00.001+08:00

Achi Rems and Baia Gems.
HAHAHAHA!!

F off.

2009-09-11T02:56:00.001+08:00

And if you have to leave, i wish that you would just leave.

Tell me baby!

2009-09-02T07:47:00.000+08:00

Oh my, i feel as though im melting...
TRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAVVVVVVVVIIIIIIIIIISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!! :DDDDD

Morning!

2009-09-02T07:13:00.000+08:00

DESI, you should listen to the 2nd vid baby. It's for YOU! hehe.

Goodday everyone :)

?

2009-08-31T14:33:00.000+08:00

Hearts don't break even

2009-08-28T01:40:00.006+08:00

Nothing else beats them.

I am already missing you girls so much. :(

Yes, every single one of you.

Sorrows beneath everything

2009-08-28T01:36:00.003+08:00

I want to be happy. Like how i was before today came.

I wish it ddn't matter at all, i wish i was as ignorant as before.

I don't want to feel this.. it is not necessary/essential.

I need to make it go away. I don't wanna weep!

God please, please, im begging you. Make me all better.

Once again.

Let go

2009-08-27T15:20:00.002+08:00

so cute.

Foolish Games

2009-08-22T03:54:00.001+08:00

STRESS-ING!!!!!

2009-08-17T17:53:00.000+08:00

Feeling so f-up.

PRESSURISED!!!!!!!

:(

You should have known better

2009-08-16T13:24:00.000+08:00

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even without fists held high, yeah
Never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now
I can't stop

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And i want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But i want you to move on
So i'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But i know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive

You know that i love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So i'm already gone

Already Gone- Kelly Clarkson

Feeling hor hor

2009-08-16T12:47:00.001+08:00

I need to study but my mum is asking me out to buy outfits for Raya.
Haiya so MaFan! Worse still I have to travel on my own with Sister Mai by public transport.
Not complaining but will add on to the MaFanness... haha.
I need to follow because if I don't, my mum is going to pick the so called 'orbits' one for me ley..
Then cannot pretty pretty for Raya later! Sheeeeeeeesh. Seee.. so MaFan.
Anyway, since the topic of Raya is somehow there ah.. whoaaaa this year I celebrate Raya flying solo one..(If you people get what I mean ) Haha. But don't care lah.. still got family, and best still rocking friends for the special occasion! :) Oklah.. like that I think there's a need to be pretty right? SO MUST FOLLOW ONE!!! Because i cannot trust my mother picking an outfit for me.. her taste abit off lah hor. Then i go bath now... before its too late! Will do updates again.. :)

Have a good daaaaay!
(Don't mind the languange hor.. just for this post only!)

Ive set my eyes on you!

2009-08-13T22:59:00.001+08:00

Love at first sight and it is what Fatin and me would call the video, Love Venture.

It is an animation project done by the both of us and i hope for the best, also for our hardwork to be paid off.

Thank you to those who had also contributed comments for further ammendmends and improvements.

Making it all happen just for you :)

Enjoy.

Evacuate the dancefloor...

2009-08-11T03:30:00.001+08:00

Im almost done baby! woohoooo!

GOODNIGHT. :D

I THINK, you're just A LITTLE too LATE.

2009-08-07T02:15:00.002+08:00

Sleepy.... but what to do? Had to stay up. :(
Thank God little bro's alright, and that little monster even had the cheek to kick me in the ass!
Hehe. At least he is still him even when he is weak physically. :)

Anyway i can't wait for later, Saturday and perhaps Sunday too.

wooohooo! :D
GDNIGHT HUMANSSSSSSSSssss.

:'(

2009-08-06T00:09:00.003+08:00

Please get well soon little brother, i don't want to lose you.

Please be strong and get well soon. I love you!!!

:(((((((((((((((((((((

why must everything be so hard on me?

IMPORTANT TASKS AND DATES!

2009-08-05T23:16:00.002+08:00

Just to remind myself, that im left with :

1. FACE MASK + REPORT DUE ON FRIDAY.(DONE)

2. MODELLING ANIMATION DUE ON NEXT WEDNESDAY.(DONE)

3. MICROCONTROLLER PROGRAMMING CODES;INTERVIEW ON NEXT TUESDAY.(DONE)

4. NETWORKING FUNDAMENTAL DISCUSSION BOARD/CLARIFY;DUE ON NEXT MONDAY.(DONE)

5. REVISIONS(chiong all the waaaaaaay!)/EXAMS IN TWO WEEKS TIME, believe it or not people.

21stAUG- Engineering Mathematics 3 & Microcontroller Technology.

24thAUG- Networking Fundamental.

26thAUG- Tellecomunication Principles.

Rendra Hairul

2009-08-02T03:46:00.002+08:00

It hurts me deep inside, to say those words to you.

But i am already broken, all hopes&dreams of us were shattered..

Time?

We don't know.

And if there's a way to this, God will show.

Close to you

2009-08-02T02:31:00.002+08:00

Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you

Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you

On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon-dust
In your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue

That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you

On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon-dust
In your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue

That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you

Just like me, they long to be
Close to you

(Ah, aahh, aahh) Close to you

Goodnight :)

See you.

2009-07-31T23:52:00.004+08:00

I got so emotional watching this movie which ended few moments ago and decided to blog about it. Its not a new release by none and other than one of the amazing producer on Earth, late Yasmin Ahmad, but ive never seen it before. Only that i had the chance to when it came out on suria. Wow, i should give it a two thumbs up. Its not just another love story, im sure Yasmin Ahmad had potrayed different kind of messages behind it. Not just about Jason and Orked... you will have to feel for it or perhaps own some sentiments of emotion. Or you wouldnt have any idea how heartwrenching the movie could turn out to be. Anything is possible to happen until God hand you over to the one you're really meant to be with. Even in marriages, well a common mentality would take it that it is suppose to last.. but what if, the person you're married to isn't the one God have written for you before you came in to Earth? Anything could have happened, right before you are fated to meet the true/right one. I was touched by my dad's text a few months back when i had wished him for his birthday. "Very 'touched' & honoured by your words. I'll always love you my daughter & take care of you till the day i hand you to 'YOUR MAN'. Many million thanks my dear." And i hope that someday God will hand me over to someone who could take care of me, love me the same way like how my parents do for my almost 19 years and so on. Someone who never gives up on me and accept me for who i am. Someone who forgives me willingly for the mistakes ive made. Someone who loves me inside out with the whole of his heart, sincerely. Someone who hears me cry, listens to my whine, and be there whenever i need a shoulder to lean against. Most importantly someone who loves me the way my mama and baba do. A man who could regain my faith in relationship once again in a few years down the road.....

"I need a real man to give me what I need
Sweet attention, love and tenderness.
When it's real it's unconditional.

Cause a man just ain't a man
If he ain't man enough to:
Love you when you're right.
Love you when you're wrong.
Love you when you're weak.
Love you when you're strong.

Take you higher
When the world got you feeling low.

He's giving you his last,
Cause he's thinking of you first.
Giving comfort when he's thinking that you're hurt.
That's what's done
When you really love someone."

Goodnight.

Rise and the fall

2009-07-28T00:02:00.004+08:00

I don't know why. But i find him Hot AT TIMES.

Same goes to Linkin Park's vocalist and my so long ago crush, Mike Shinoda. :)

Another random post right here. So, goodnight.

You?

2009-07-27T22:44:00.004+08:00

I guess it doesn't matter anymore. You? Yeah, you.
Ignorance is a BLISS, it have always been that way.

Everything seems so tiring.
I feel like im in a race, and having to keep up with everything is out of my own pace.
I am tired. Give me a break.

R a n d o m?

2009-07-26T23:50:00.000+08:00

This week have been pretty hectic for me.
Lots and lots of crazy tests going on and i even have a lab test the first thing in the morning when school starts.
My weekend was even crazier! Had a family gathering yesterday and spent the night with 4 of my polypockets for a sleepover at my place. Sadly Desi and Atie couldnt join in, or else we would have our full strength gang man! Hehe.
But whatever it is, girls, i really do appreciate all of you for coming over to accompany me for the night and yes i would love to do it again and again and again!
Lets make it a monthly thing or perhaps a weekly thing? Haha! Rightttt....

I don't know why i want to say this but i feel like saying it anyway.
So it goes like this.....
I AM SO IN LOVE WITH BOTH MY MAMI AND PAPI.(i really do....)
They are still the best apart from everyone else and obviously my number one.
May God always bless them and love them as much as how they love me from the day i came to Earth. I love you two, i really really do.(TAK ADE BOYFRIEND PON TAK APE!! I STILL HAVE YOU TWO!! hahaha.)

Alright people of love! I need to have my sleeeeeep! This post really turns out to be a random one. I'll do updates whenever i can then.

LOVE, Fizah.R! :)

Eye candy

2009-07-22T23:13:00.004+08:00

I am very stress. Right now. And i feel like breaking down, any moment. Shits, theres just so much to do. And i keep on procastinating. IT IS TIME FOR YOU TO WAKE UP NURHAFIZAH BTE MOHD RAMLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hey babygirl, im so sorry i couldnt be there for you yesternight. i hope you're feeling pretty much better right now. Just remember im always here for you.

& I miss Zatie.
& I miss Fildza.
& I miss Mia.
& I miss Shida.

:( very badly.

So amazing.

2009-07-05T23:12:00.005+08:00

Been there and done that.
Been thinking so much.
Been really down.
Been busy.
Been hating myself for the things ive done.
Been so bad.
Been confused lately.
Been down.
Been disappointed.
Been lost, so lost.
Been thinking again.
Been contemplating.
Been hurt.
Been in this shit countless of times & still not learning a lesson.
Been so tangled up.
Been in this mess, not once, not twice, not thrice..
Been tired.
Been really tired of ?
Been worn out..
Been feeling like giving everything up.
Been asking myself why.
Been sober.
Been down, eight feet underground down.
Yes really down.

Goodnight.

Hey babygirl, you know i love you too. :)

Awwwwwww...................

2009-06-30T02:06:00.000+08:00

This is super duper heart-wrenching! :(

Without you

2009-06-29T03:23:00.001+08:00

I am fine.
Better off this way.

Where is my love?

2009-06-28T12:06:00.014+08:00

Did quite well for my term tests.. And a satisfaction score for E-Maths3! :)

More major projects/assignments coming up for this semester..

That should mean lesser time for play/fun = enjoy.

I think i need to be more organized because i always feel that time is not on my side..

Yes, i really need to.. or else i'll be spending unnecessary time on things i shouldn't focus at.

I love my polypockets and they have always been the reason why im still breathing in school.

I have panda eyes and been trying so hard to get rid of it.. i need more sleep.

Does placing cucumber on your eyes for one night helps to remove panda eyes?

Ive always seen people doing it on television and i really wonder if it do works..

Bestfriend, when can i ever get to see you?

I havent seen you around for quite sometime..not even in school.. why is that so!!

I miss having sleepovers with you.. not to mention holidays too with the usual KL crew.

Hahaha. I can't wait to see you again babygirl..

& i miss my girls really much, when can i ever have the time to be with all the 4 of you? :(

And im still so lost right here, don't know which way to go..

Can't even make up my mind for some things.. still putting myself at risk.

Confusion always hit me hard making it harder to direct me to the right path..

Life has been good, at least good enough to me.

Well maybe the problem lies in me, no one else but me.

I am afraid to open up again.. more like ive had enough.

Time and we need it, a whole lot of it!

For recovery, for starting anew, for whatever that awaits me in the future.

God has His own plans for every one of us.

Only He knows well enough what ive been through and will be going through.

But one thing is for sure, it won't be any sooner.. i can't do it, i don't know how to.

Yes it is me. No one else. But me.

Slow goodbye.

Don't let me go.

2009-06-18T02:25:00.004+08:00

It's TOO LATE, to apologise ( Read this )

Project madness with Fatin

2009-06-16T20:07:00.005+08:00

Don't have to

2009-06-14T21:14:00.004+08:00

Tell me.

Lithiuuuummm

2009-06-08T15:32:00.003+08:00

Boredom Attack!!!!!

Nobody's home.

2009-06-07T10:01:00.014+08:00

Ahhh i wake up to a beautiful morning and managed to do my prayers..

Peace of mind is what i get in return, thank God.

Slept back and woke up with kerbaumerah's help, my very own personal alarm clock, and got ready for a morning jog. Thank you :)

Managed to go beyond the distance, an expectation which ive set for myself since last night and (yes ar!) , checklist ; tick whats done.

I need to read again like i used to but i still have library fines to pay up.. 41 bucks, any kind soul willing to help me settle this bill of mine? Heh.

Alternatively i could travel back to school and borrow books from the library instead.. oh well, i need to come back there after all to settle up piles of projects. So it makes no difference...

I don't know why but i miss having family gatherings.. too bad Aloha chalet couldnt be book due to the stupid swine ass flu. Just hoping that i could have a meet up with them soon.

Oh yes, i miss bowling too.. especially with Tobi.. he showed

me pretty much how to do it man, how could i not miss having him around.. haha. With his stupid jokes, 1 meter kontot.. hell.. come back to Spore ah! Celebrated Fatin's advanced birthday last Thursday and our plan did go well cause she was surprised actually, her face was blur the moment the birthday cake came towards her. She wanted to clap along as she thought we were celebrating someone else's birthday. Keep it up polypockets! Way to goooo! Karaoke at her place after cake cutting session, terkehel, terpleh-ot& got all high singing to the old school rock songs. Haha.

Life is pretty much good..but i might need better days around. Everything happens for a reason, i will always hold on to these words because in one way or another it gives significance to your life. In every single person that we meet, we learn something new from them. Be it good or bad, its all kept for experiences.

I know i put myself at risk certain times but i wouldn't know if i wouldn't try. I don't like living in regrets, either. You have to let go of a baby's hand one day and let him learn to walk on his own and thus learn from his own fall. Get back up no matter how hard you fall, that is the hardest part but you will understand someday why you fall then learn from it. This is life and life is short. Face it, you have no choice.

Is there a coward soul living in me? I hate to admit that im one. Why do i have to feel this when people keep telling me im not the one at fault? Why do i have to feel like ive commited the greatest sin on Earth? These emotions which im carrying with me grows heavier as each day goes by.. I have to face it someday, i have to. Jaded with this complication. There are wires tangled up in my head and each end felt like a dead knot, no way outta this. Time could be a good solution, i hope.

Turned up for Shida love's birthday bbq pit yesterday night with the help of my parents as a mean of transportation. Haha. East coast lah, so far... Had a great time with my girls and some of my old friends, the boys.. Its really nice having all of them around. Missing my secondary school times as i start to recall all those funny moments and some good times we ever shared. Haha. Anyway, happy nineteenth babygirl! Hope you like the sexy stuffs we bought for you and be sure that Afiq has no share in this ( as he claim he does have a share, haha. ) All the best in life and future endeavours, may you be blessed in every good ways. Lastly, carik boyfriend cepat cepat lah shida.. hahahaha. Meet you soon and lets have a good

chat at Mcdonalds Forum again okay? Haha. Love yaaaaa! :) *hugs!

Goodnight

2009-05-30T23:59:00.004+08:00

I know im supposed to be mugging today, but i spent my time with these kids instead. I had so much fun working with them all today, really. Despite being all mud-ed up and all down dirrrrtyyyy, lets spell today awesommmeeee and a lil bit grueeesomee people!! Haha. Can't wait for tmr! :)

Thank you.

2009-05-24T21:56:00.001+08:00

:) happy.

I like that boom boom pow!

2009-05-17T12:33:00.006+08:00

A bitch song, agree? heh.

Anyway, i had a real good time watching Red Bull X-Fighters freestyle motocross event yesterday plus the company for the evening was great.. All the many many gratitude and thanks to Asrul for making it to happen..appreciate them very much :) Fatin even came down for awhile, she was behaving like a bimbo for a moment but the boys sure do enjoy her company. Right right right? HAHAHA! Pictures are still with Asrul and will do chase after him for them! Haha. I have plenty of unfinished business to settle with, so catch up with you guys soon.. Have a GOOOOODAAAAY! :)

Babygirls

2009-05-14T01:03:00.012+08:00

HAPPY legally 18TH my dearest polypocket, NURSYAHIRAH NOORMAN!

WE LOVE YOUUUUUUU!!! :)

With lots of love,
Fizah Ramle :)

Happy happy happy!

2009-05-03T12:08:00.004+08:00

Afternoon everyone! :) I really have got a lot to say, i swear.. only time won't allow me to. Or maybe my fingers are too tired of typing, not really my fingers but maybe it is me, me, me! School have been really hectic with the new timetable. Tuesdays are definitely my favourite because i start at 1 instead of 8 or 9. But i must say that i am enjoying every single bit of my life despite the high energy consumption which kind of drains me out. AND yes i am proud of myself that i make it through life with no regrets! Polypockets are definitely my happy pills in school, and i can never imagine life in TP without them, honest! I love you, girls :) And to HASLINA BTE AHMAD, finally we're in the same school and its really nice having you around, and to sleep with you and to wake up with you and to go school with you is superbly wonderful. I wish i could do it everyday though! HAHAHA. I love you too! :) Ive got so many pictures to show and i even have a stupid vid of me doing push-ups which was a dare by my ass-ed cousin to upload. Soon soon soon! Right now, at this very moment, i have plenty of assignments to be done but i am stuck-ed here instead, BUT no fret.. i shall make my move now or else my grades are going to haunt me in the future. To my one and only girls, Zatie, Mia, Fildza& Shida, I AM MISSING YOU GIRLS VERY FREAKING MUCH!!! I HOPE ALL OF YOU ARE DOING ALRIGHT OUT THERE WITH SCHOOL AND EVERYTHING ELSE! LET'S GO CHILL SOMETIME AND DO CATCH-UPS! :) To Zul, Faiz & company, i miss lepak-ings with you all too, HONEST!!! We shall wait for one perfect day for us to hang out again ok?! No fret, no fret! Heh. Goooood day everyone& BE HAPPY! Never ever let ANYTHING pull you DOWN, not even for some stupid relationship, because you only live ONCE, and live everyday to the FULLEST like you will never see the world again tomorrow. :)

We all do.

2009-04-16T23:02:00.002+08:00

Always on my mind.

Clueless.

2009-04-15T00:53:00.004+08:00

" When will you see, its not so easy for me. "

"I never thought that you could say these words, is this really happening? "

ATTENTION : Polypockets special edition

2009-04-14T22:48:00.010+08:00

Ohmaagawddddddd, this is how Amanda Sari usually pronounces her 'oh my god' out of random! HAHA!! nak step gossip girl konon. pigi dah. *rolls eyes!* hahaha. And at random times she'll go like 'Aku cute tak korang, ahhhhhhh.. aku cute kan!!!' HAHAHAAHAHA. alalalala Manda cute laaaaa okay!!!! She is my favourite girl, yo! Because she is the most random girl you can ever find on earth in terms of conversations. HAHA.

EH KORAAAAANG CEPAAAAAAAAAT!( with her voice almost dying) DA PUKUL BRAPAA NII!!! NANTI LAMBAAAAAAT!!! *points time at her watch* &
guess who does this line belongs to? Siape lagi kalau tak lain dan tak bukan lagi Kakak kanchiong kite, Atie tersayang. hehehehe.

Aku stRRRRess(r karat) ah dengan dektu, tktau ape lagi nak cakap, suke hati mak bapak die la, asalkan bahagie. AHHHH okay this part, i swear she really emphasised her 'r' on the word stress! Who else if it isnt our fairlady of all, Radddd kaRat!!! hahaha.

Dalah korang semue makan taik aku ah!! Says Fatin the Ms Tekbergz/Tek-like-esplanade if any of us used to ignore any of her queries. HAHA. We are also known as pickpockets which was given by her. hahaha.

Itu bukan pussycat dolls lagi, itu da pukimak dolls!! I still remember this phrase although the incident happened quite a long long time ago. Because she isnt the type who would go around and swear vulgars. So this is considered classic ah babe, rare moment of our Ms Teh-Si ahhh! HAHA!!

EHH lambat load!!! Alamak this part eh, i swear ah i cannot forget.. cannot forgive even! True classic of all man. hahaha! Who else if its not Paeeee(Rapaeh Bte Buang), the name also was given by me.. kalau aku tadaaa name tu pon tadaaa tau!

LAST but not LEAST, Ms-you-know-who-she-is-you-pusssiess!! Once we both went to Ikea to get the soft ice-cream which i recommended her to try. She bought Hotdog bun instead because she ddnt like vanilla. But she tried licking mine. Oh my, without hesitation, she queued and bought the ice-cream because it was a miracle she happened to like it though its vanilla! And by the way her name is Ira lah kan, the most perangai budak gemok of all(apart from Teh-si cause i see alot of 'perangai like fatkid' at her blog lorr!!), you know why i named her that? Because she had both the ice-cream and hotdog bun in her left and right hands. She even licked and bite them almost at the same time. HAHAHA. sorry Ira(takkan takleh gurau kot.. HAHA!)

& All of the above explains how much i truly miss my poly/pick pockets! They're the reason i am alive at school man!! 20th isnt far from today and yes though i am still having my holiday mood, the one and only reason i keep looking forward to this day is because of all the 7 of you!! I miss every single one of your perangai even if its ugly or nice and all the chillings/escapes from lectures at bedok reservoir. Random talks/bitchings/gossip girls/joget joget/whats inside the bag game/your-problem-also-my-problem-lor-talks/boyfriend or boysss talk/religious talks presenting our ustazah of all, Fatin/& macam macam lah. Everything about you all cann?!?! Ish seriously im excited for school.. my heart goes like dap dup dap dup now! HAHA. Oh man, how i love collageeeeeee! I shall wait for you all infront of TP gate okay?!(balik balik korang yg tunggu aku.. HAHA!) So girls i shall see you all for real soon, tak buleh tahannn, rinduu!! Sayang semuanya!

Gdnight! :)

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2009-04-13T23:23:00.005+08:00

I am furiously mad at my older brother for not considering the hardships my mum went through to bring us up for as long as 19 years or if its my brother's case, 21 years for f-sake! He is really unreasonable and don't usually think when he talk. And it is bloody rude to raise your voice or shout at your parents when you don't even know what the hell they have went through all these while. I don't think you even bloody appreciate the sacrifices she have made just to satisfy/cater to all of our needs. Do you even take time to think about the condition of mum and dad, financially? You even use the air con almost every night without even thinking about how expensive the bill would turn out to be at the end of the month! Do you even think about having part-time jobs while you are having your free time from school? Instead you burdened mum with your handphone bills due to overseas phonecalls you made sometime ago. Have you ever think about how mum struggled to pay off those bills on her own? It is because of your ridiculous actions but she have to bear the consequences and not you. You are 21 yet you act like a 12 year old. Seriously i don't think you are wise enough to think about all these things. Call yourself an older brother. I won't let you treat mum like that. Because after all when you are having your hard time, she is the one who have been the shelter to your troubles.

someday,

2009-04-12T03:37:00.001+08:00

Love is Family

2009-04-12T01:11:00.017+08:00

MUKA TEMBAM!!! AHAHAHA.
I really ate alot that day and the day before.. HELP ME! :(

To beloved aunts, uncles&cousins, thanks for making the sleepover to happen again!
You guys are seriously being missed! I had a wonderful time laughing my ass off with you all. And now lets look forward to Abg didi's chalet on the 25TH at Sentosa! woooow! can't wait! Apart from that, may Auntie Nani's babyboy deliver safely and we are sure to be there to give you our support. Insya Allah. Thank you all for always being there, giving me the warmth, support and love through thick and thin. Even if Nenek Sam and Tok Rajab have both left us much earlier, we still have each other to stick with and i am sure we will always be as one. I will always have you people and you people will always have me. That is for sure! We should do foot reflexology together again!!! It felt totally relaxing and peaceful while the guy massaged my feet plus LEG for forty minutes! I thought it would be ticklish at first and wondered how i could survive for that long! But yeah, so far everything is reaaaaaaaal good and this isnt any exaggeration! HAHA. Except that there were a few occasions when he interrupted my peace by striking conversations with me. He asked if my mum and me were sisters. Whoa seh. Old like that you say my sister?! HAHA. No la my mum still pretty la (tsk, give chance, sayang mama mah). Heh. Anyway i just could sense that happiness is on my side, and i hope it wont ever fade away. Thank you God once again.. Imma hit the bed soooooon!

Goodnight!

&Mama, please don't worry about me getting hooked up again. I won't and ive already told you i have NO faith in having relationships anymore. So having one is really pointless. I will always hold on to your words and dad's. Because those words keep me going even up till now. Those words made me stood up from the fall and made me realise there is more to life than just this. I am much grateful that i have the support from the both of you in times when i was really in need. Thank you and may God always bless the both of you. I LOVE YOU TWO dearly much! :)

Sweetest Goodbye

2009-04-08T15:11:00.003+08:00

"Everything is just one step nearer to true happiness. So please smile." Thank you :)

So who will be the one waiting for me at the other side of the road?

See you in a few years down the road then. I am in for the surprise.

Losing GAME!

2009-04-08T04:04:00.008+08:00

I guess i don't need your opinion.
I am better off my way..

&YES! Offroad soon guys, something new to venture in. Thanks babe! Haha!

&Thanks too for yesterday people.. and again a beautiful Tuesday was yesterday.
GOODIE NIGHT!

I was then TOOO naive. And i am now coming back even better than before.

Beautiful Monday,

2009-04-06T13:37:00.008+08:00

YOU PEOPLE OUT THERE HAVE TO REALLY WATCH THIS!RENT IT FROM SOMEONE OR ANY DVD STORE OR PURCHASE IT OR LAST RESORT, STEAL IT..(not!)

It leaves me with this questioning feeling.. which im pretty much amazed at how it could leave me pondering this bad for up till now.

Thank you Mia for the dvd. At least i could feel that i am not alone in this deep shit, haha! :)
Yeah probably time will tell, time will show.
Patience will take you there.. agree?

&Some things are better off not knowing. I choose not to know, i choose to be this ignorant.. i guess it works much better this way and i am pretty contented with how my life is right now. Appreciating things as it is :) Thank you God for everything.

Melt my heart to stone!

2009-04-06T02:12:00.001+08:00

Hey saturday!

2009-04-04T21:54:00.006+08:00

Oh my.. i do eat a lot today..
Guess that explains how happy and contented i am. :)

Always look on the bright side of life..

You don't even know how much it hurts to miss you, do you?

2009-03-31T00:57:00.006+08:00

Something we had which was once so beautiful

you could have stayed a lil longer for our 1st.

For how long will you?

2009-03-30T20:43:00.003+08:00

Don't keep on blaming me for all the changes,
because in the first place,
who ever started the fire?
Who in the world had made this happened?
Think about it.
I was never ever in this.
Never.

No faith

2009-03-30T02:12:00.003+08:00

& i wanna talk tonight, until the morning light, about how you save my life...you and me see how we are.

Call me when you're sober

2009-03-29T13:15:00.005+08:00

These thoughts of you wont go away..
It still lingers and lingers and lingers.
I still remember vividly those nights when i had waited for you to call/text me,
just to say that you love me like you usually do or maybe a simple phone call saying "sayang, i miss you... ". and you would tell me to look out for you out of the window so that i could wave to you goodbye. And now, everything's gone.. vanished in a blink of an eye, swept away by the blow of the wind. Ive never ever wanted this, i am being forced to do this by your own accord, your own choice.

This is not the end to everything.. i still have a life to live with.
You were once my everything but now i guess you aren't anymore.
Maybe one day you'll start to realise all the things that we've been through and understand why it pains me to move on so much.

Who in the world would have expected this to come? I don't even if you do.

I dont understand

2009-03-28T14:32:00.003+08:00

This explains how i feel now...

Pain in agony

2009-03-15T15:03:00.002+08:00

Thank you little brother, you made me smile once again :)

"keep holding on"

2009-03-10T19:55:00.001+08:00

Nothing lasts forever.

No other love

2009-03-08T03:46:00.005+08:00

Happy 11th months baby though i hadnt had the chance to wish you right when i fell asleep the moment you boarded your plane..
Come home soon and hug me.. play this song on your guitar just for me.
I miss you really much. :(

I love you.

Greatest memory

2009-03-04T23:06:00.005+08:00

My Greatest Memory - Hope

Make it all mine..

2009-03-03T23:55:00.007+08:00

Wow, my dad is paying me for teaching my lil bro..
I wasnt expecting to be paid at all because after all its my lil bro!
But yeah, couldnt push away the money though cause after all i need it! :(
While waiting for the american club job, i guess it should be a good way in earning bucks.

Yesterday was funny.... I had a picnic date with sweetheart, well it was a last minute thing actually. We took hours and hours discussing over the phone of what we should do for the day. Browsed through the net and found a list of parks that are found in SG. And i decided that we could have a picnic at Kent Ridge Park but it turned out that the place had nowhere good scene for us to settle down! HAHA. Kent Ridge Park is most suitable for exercise because it was listed there that they have the MOST number of fitness stations. But the stubborn me refused to take those little information as a consideration. So we ended up having to walk all the way to Henderson waves and took a bus to Harbour front. Sorrry baby, i know we should have gone to the beach... :(

But but but, everything did not end just like that. As soon as we reached Harbour front interchange, boyfriend bought tickets for admission to Sentosa. He decided that we have picnic at any of its beaches instead. Because if we were to ditch the idea of having a picnic, how are we going to deal with the plastic bags of food that we brought from home and bought from a supermarket earlier on? Haha, yeah so boyfriend's last minute idea turned out to be real good.. We got to see the sunset as soon as we reached and slowly made our way to Pahlawan.. The beach was partially empty during that hour and its kind of a good thing cause theres only the two of us filling up the empty surface of the sanddddd.. heh. We finally settled down on a really good spot except that there were some construction going on at the back but yeah we were all fine with it.. Had our dinner, but i wasnt as famished as i was earlier on. Coudlnt resist the tunes boyfriend played for me with his guitar and we tried to sing along but damn, ddnt memorise lyrics lah.. haha spoiler. YES! overall i had a really good date with Rendra indeed, like finallyyyy.. its been sometime right, sayang? :)

Pictures werent really taken, his camera created problems in the middle of us camwhoring. HAHA. But nemindd, more pictures of us will be uploaded soon for the future dates to happen. Boyfriend is finally back from jamming, time for a conversation! Hehe. Good night world.

i love rendra.(to every single bits and pieces)

Let me hold you

2009-03-02T03:53:00.004+08:00

Good Night/Morning :)

Boys before flowers, yeah you've got to watch!

2009-03-01T00:07:00.000+08:00

Get loose...

2009-02-28T12:20:00.016+08:00

Exams are totally over and im really having the time of my life.
It is because i am fun deprived, been mugging for weeks, and i told you i had no life.
So now it should be the other way round, right? :)

Bowling on Wednesday was really a kick, i swear that was the moment i let myself get loose,
f free from everything.
I had a better score than the previous bowling outing, woooooow, and am proud of myself. HAHA.
Hey come on, its been really really long time since i bowl and ive never gotten how to do it till the day i went with Kak Mai and friends.
Tobi always achieved the highest score and im green with envy. Haha, nahhhh... he was the one who really taught me how to do it and im much grateful for that. But yeah, sadly he had to fly off back to Switz to serve NS for five months and he took off just yesterday. Couldnt send him though cause i had a bbq pit with polypockets and the rest of my classmates plus some outsiders.

Hey Tobi, hopefully you have a safe journey back home and yup we're gonna miss having you for bowling and everything elseeeeeee! :(

So i surprised boyfriend at a coffee shop nearby our place. He was eating thosai alone and i came from his back and gave a sudden peck on his cheek. I knew he was stunned for a moment to see me there.. Hehe. I had missed him so mucccccccccch... Its been really sometime though since we met or date or had fun together. Sat and talked nearby my place and it was really nice.. wished i could stay a lil longer but i had to go.. so as usual i will kiss him goodbye and he will watch me walk up the stairs to home. I love you, baby.... :)

On Thursday met Kak Mai yet again with her boyfriend and Tobi too for the very last outing with Tobi..
We went to catch my bloody valantine 3D at vivo and it was way way way wickedddddddd..
You guys have to watch it too, its really worth your 6 or 7 or 8 or 9 or 10 bucks!
It is M18 and of course you'll be expecting some naked scene or worse still 'making love' scene.
I shouted and laughed like nobody's business.. covered my eyes with my bag for several times when it got too gore and gosh, somehow i cant stand it.. But im still giving it a thumbs up. Go watch watch watch watch!
So in the evening, we rushed to Kak Mai place to have dinner. Zaihan and Midi were there too, adding on to the atmosphere. We had pizza and chicken rice for dinner and i couldnt figure why i had no appetite, ok lie.. yes i know why. I was supposed to have fun but i just have that somewhere in those little corners of my mind bothering me causing all my positive moods to go down to the drain. I just couldnt stop thinking why why why because i strongly believe what ive done wasnt wrong or disrespectful or i dont know what the hell is in his mind. Dads can be a real pain at times. Sigh. I dont understand him, really.

So at night, i teared myself to sleep. Like i said, i couldnt stop myself from thinking.
I felt so burned inside and its hurting me. Sigh.

As of yesterday, again i had lots of fun bbq-ing with them and Mr Chua came down too.
He even treated some of my classmates vodka, i was surprised somehow at how generous he was at that point of time. HAHA.
So pictures were taken everywhere.. and yes we should organise more of that again since it could be that we are still the people from Q808 till graduation. Errrrrr, thats if our results are capable of pulling us through..... urgh dont remind me. Haha.
Okok, im sure all of us can make it alright. Dont worrrrrrrrrrry! :)
Mum and Dad fetched me around midnight and we had Swensens after that. I was craving for ice cream since forever!!!!! Crispy waffel with vanila ice cream, berries and whipped cream on top never fail to make me feel much better.. :)

As of today, i am clueless of what im gonna do......
Boyfriend is out for jamming..
We shall see then.

Okay imma outtaaaaa hereeeeee. Real hungry right now.. Have a good day.

PSSSSSSSST, my boyfriend and i are coming close to a year. Looking forward to it...... :)

Love you like there's no other.

2009-02-20T12:59:00.002+08:00

Hey Silly, you made me feel guilty all night long.
But it is okay cause i guess the guilt i had was worth the fun being with you..
I love you and yup that is true..
Cheers to the 12 years of friendship and we're still counting on right?
Yeah love you like there is no other :)